trauma
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Backlog 2
Since I got the results of the assessment last week (now two weeks ago), all I can think about (outside of Xena and Stardew Valley; current Hyperfixations) is seeing how the Autism aspect has played into my life. I started therapy six years ago, looking for answers about…a lot of…
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Tommy Pt. 2
The following days after that session we kept Tommy internally at a distance. Truthfully I was still hurt by the nightmare, and recovering from the memory we had disclosed. I didn’t blame Tommy though. It took me some time to recognize I was angry at the adults in life who…
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Tommy Pt. 1
Content Warning: Readers may find the subject material distressing. Though no explicit details relating to SA are within, please take caution nonetheless. This was not easy to write. Being this vulnerable is a huge risk for us. It was a pivotal moment for us in our healing. Acknowledging what we…
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Rapid Fire Answers
This is going to be a short one, and probably rushed. Mostly due to sleep deprivation. Has my sleep gotten better? No. Did I manage to talk to my partner about our relationship? Yes, they took it well and frankly I have to remind myself the brain tends to get…
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Coping with Sleep Deprivation and Relationship Issues
We were running today off about six hours of sleep. After what feels like a month,of really poor quality sleep, I can definitely feel the toll it’s taking on us mentally. By the third time one of my cats woke me up in the middle of the night, I was…
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Navigating Therapy Transitions: Emotions and Growth
We got the strange want to reread (or in this case, listen to) Robert Oxnam’s A Fractured Mind: My Life With Multiple Personality Disorder. I had vague flashes of reading this in High School, and then again in college years ago; and now I have my own copy at home.…
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Understanding Trauma: A Survivor’s Narrative
TW: sexual assault It dawned on us this morning yesterday was a trauma anniversary. No wonder we couldn’t stop crying in therapy. That day over a decade ago… It almost destroyed us completely. I only remember bits and pieces. Everything from my perspective is muted. I remember we walked up…
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The First Stream: Chaos Entities
I woke up this morning feeling slightly out of it. Another night of disrupted sleep. I never sleep well. If it wasn’t just darkness, it was nightmares. And if it wasn’t nightmares, it would be dreams leaving me feeling many things and out of place upon waking. Last night I…
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Understanding Complex DID: A Journey Through Polyfragmentation
In January of 2023 my therapist mentioned C-DID (complex DID) in passing for the first time. We didn’t know then C-DID was the former clinical term for polyfragmented. I remember a caretaker part, Jane, stepping forward to give an answer as to how we were really doing around that time.…
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