ptsd
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Enough is Enough
The first session with the new therapist went well, even if we did fall apart some at the mention of our former therapist. We’re hopeful, despite the overwhelming fear and unease within…well, everything. I knew we would be overwhelmed; it’s a first for us to grieve the loss of a…
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Understanding the Cravings of a Complex Mind
I keep thinking about something my therapist pointed out: my brain craves challenge. Without chaos, while it is peaceful, there’s not a sense of movement or problems I can focus on and rely on the System to work with through the issues. I have at least 10 drafts stowed away,…
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The Fourth Stream: Tell All or Tell None
I can’t wait for March. I have an evaluation set up to confirm if we’re Autistic and ADHD (finally), amongst the cPTSD and DID. My twin relates more with our mother about OCD. Our mom thinks our younger brother is also OCD. And our older brother? Untreated alcoholism, depression, and…
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Small Note
It feels like time has sped up, stopped, warped, and slowed to an unbearable pace. All because we dread the 31st arriving. Since our last post nothing has changed: we’re still avidly distracting when we can, still internally spiraling while riding the waves of grief. It’s suffocating. It feels like…
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Understanding Trauma: A Survivor’s Narrative
TW: sexual assault It dawned on us this morning yesterday was a trauma anniversary. No wonder we couldn’t stop crying in therapy. That day over a decade ago… It almost destroyed us completely. I only remember bits and pieces. Everything from my perspective is muted. I remember we walked up…
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Understanding Complex DID: A Journey Through Polyfragmentation
In January of 2023 my therapist mentioned C-DID (complex DID) in passing for the first time. We didn’t know then C-DID was the former clinical term for polyfragmented. I remember a caretaker part, Jane, stepping forward to give an answer as to how we were really doing around that time.…
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