dissociativeidentitydisorder
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A Year In
A year ago now one of us thought about starting a blog. Mostly to compile all the information we know on life this way. There wasn’t a single space for information on polyfragmentation. And now? Now it’s devolved into a living space for the chaos. Even the best laid plans…
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Backlog 2
Since I got the results of the assessment last week (now two weeks ago), all I can think about (outside of Xena and Stardew Valley; current Hyperfixations) is seeing how the Autism aspect has played into my life. I started therapy six years ago, looking for answers about…a lot of…
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Backlog 1
April 3rd, 2025 Today was a hard day. We slept, though restless and woke up rather early. This morning while making coffee, we had forgotten that we had already prepped for today. There was water already in the coffee pot, and we added more. Upon realizing it we dumped the…
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Navigating Language Anxiety: Finding Authentic Expression
The last week has been something. I’m stressed over the geopolitical landscape as of late, and possibly a bit more prickly internally than usual. I keep finding our brain circling back to two things: how the system swings in extremes, and the mulling over language. Primarily language. The “extremes” being…
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Curse of the Light Sleeper
I’ve spent the last two evenings enthralled with Downton Abbey. I used to catch previews on PBS as a teen, but never got a chance to sit and watch it. I picked up the box set a year or so ago. I’m an absolute sucker for period peice dramas. There’s…
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Tommy Pt. 2
The following days after that session we kept Tommy internally at a distance. Truthfully I was still hurt by the nightmare, and recovering from the memory we had disclosed. I didn’t blame Tommy though. It took me some time to recognize I was angry at the adults in life who…
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Tommy Pt. 1
Content Warning: Readers may find the subject material distressing. Though no explicit details relating to SA are within, please take caution nonetheless. This was not easy to write. Being this vulnerable is a huge risk for us. It was a pivotal moment for us in our healing. Acknowledging what we…
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Enough is Enough
The first session with the new therapist went well, even if we did fall apart some at the mention of our former therapist. We’re hopeful, despite the overwhelming fear and unease within…well, everything. I knew we would be overwhelmed; it’s a first for us to grieve the loss of a…
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Rapid Fire Answers
This is going to be a short one, and probably rushed. Mostly due to sleep deprivation. Has my sleep gotten better? No. Did I manage to talk to my partner about our relationship? Yes, they took it well and frankly I have to remind myself the brain tends to get…
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Writing Memoirs: Finding Your Voice Amid Trauma
This Thursday we have our first session with the new therapist. We’re nervous, and we know it will be okay. The past few days have been such a blur I don’t remember making our previous post. I mean, it’s there alright, and there’s a touch of “me” to it, but…
