DID
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The Fourth Stream: Tell All or Tell None
I can’t wait for March. I have an evaluation set up to confirm if we’re Autistic and ADHD (finally), amongst the cPTSD and DID. My twin relates more with our mother about OCD. Our mom thinks our younger brother is also OCD. And our older brother? Untreated alcoholism, depression, and…
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Small Note
It feels like time has sped up, stopped, warped, and slowed to an unbearable pace. All because we dread the 31st arriving. Since our last post nothing has changed: we’re still avidly distracting when we can, still internally spiraling while riding the waves of grief. It’s suffocating. It feels like…
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The Third Stream: Alive, but Unwell
It’s been two weeks of constant Hell. We spent last week in and out of crying spells since that Tuesday, and then recently caught a cold. Even as the cold symptoms begin to lessen and I stop quietly distracting our mind, the noise creeps back in. There’s some feeling dissatisfied…
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The Second Stream: Epiphanies
The course of the last week as been a consistent roller coaster. Par for the course of Winter for us I suppose. After all, some the worse traumas occurred during Winter. The past few days have been tumultuous to say the least. Most of the week we felt fine, a…
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The Burden of Extra Time: A Personal Reflection
If rest was not needed I would probably spend the time reading, writing, or more importantly: focusing on internal communication. Maybe finish up my college semester. The last few months have been a rollercoaster of change. Mainly Internal. My mom reached out last week and asked us questions to better…
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The First Stream: Chaos Entities
I woke up this morning feeling slightly out of it. Another night of disrupted sleep. I never sleep well. If it wasn’t just darkness, it was nightmares. And if it wasn’t nightmares, it would be dreams leaving me feeling many things and out of place upon waking. Last night I…
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Understanding Complex DID: A Journey Through Polyfragmentation
In January of 2023 my therapist mentioned C-DID (complex DID) in passing for the first time. We didn’t know then C-DID was the former clinical term for polyfragmented. I remember a caretaker part, Jane, stepping forward to give an answer as to how we were really doing around that time.…
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To Little or not to Little
What does it mean to be a kid at heart? To be a kid at heart is a phrase some would say means to have “energy” or being whimsical. It initially perplexed us. But to be fair, a lot of idioms take us a minute to parse and sort out…
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The Oddities of Time
Time is a strange concept. It moves fast, slow, somewhere in-between. For those with certain mental health conditions, the grasp of time is glitchy. I cannot speak for anyone else other than myself. Time has been no friend of mine. Time often eludes me. When I’m stuck in an episode…
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Introduction(s), or rather: What are we doing here?
Heyo! Welcome! So glad you stopped in. We are collectively Sheepie. A System. That is, a person diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), or alternatively may identify as plural. Our goal with creating this blog is to compile information, resources, and personal experience relating to DID in one place. To…
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