anxiety
-
Backlog 2
Since I got the results of the assessment last week (now two weeks ago), all I can think about (outside of Xena and Stardew Valley; current Hyperfixations) is seeing how the Autism aspect has played into my life. I started therapy six years ago, looking for answers about…a lot of…
-
Backlog 1
April 3rd, 2025 Today was a hard day. We slept, though restless and woke up rather early. This morning while making coffee, we had forgotten that we had already prepped for today. There was water already in the coffee pot, and we added more. Upon realizing it we dumped the…
-
Curse of the Light Sleeper
I’ve spent the last two evenings enthralled with Downton Abbey. I used to catch previews on PBS as a teen, but never got a chance to sit and watch it. I picked up the box set a year or so ago. I’m an absolute sucker for period peice dramas. There’s…
-
Enough is Enough
The first session with the new therapist went well, even if we did fall apart some at the mention of our former therapist. We’re hopeful, despite the overwhelming fear and unease within…well, everything. I knew we would be overwhelmed; it’s a first for us to grieve the loss of a…
-
Rapid Fire Answers
This is going to be a short one, and probably rushed. Mostly due to sleep deprivation. Has my sleep gotten better? No. Did I manage to talk to my partner about our relationship? Yes, they took it well and frankly I have to remind myself the brain tends to get…
-
Navigating Therapy Transitions: Emotions and Growth
We got the strange want to reread (or in this case, listen to) Robert Oxnam’s A Fractured Mind: My Life With Multiple Personality Disorder. I had vague flashes of reading this in High School, and then again in college years ago; and now I have my own copy at home.…
-
Understanding the Cravings of a Complex Mind
I keep thinking about something my therapist pointed out: my brain craves challenge. Without chaos, while it is peaceful, there’s not a sense of movement or problems I can focus on and rely on the System to work with through the issues. I have at least 10 drafts stowed away,…
-
The Fourth Stream: Tell All or Tell None
I can’t wait for March. I have an evaluation set up to confirm if we’re Autistic and ADHD (finally), amongst the cPTSD and DID. My twin relates more with our mother about OCD. Our mom thinks our younger brother is also OCD. And our older brother? Untreated alcoholism, depression, and…
-
Bittersweet Goodbye
I wanted to write a post on layering. I wanted to answer the last two weeks worth of daily prompts. I wanted to feel like life was still in flow. Last Tuesday the therapist we’ve worked with for the past five almost six years informed us they were moving, transitioning…
-
Understanding Trauma: A Survivor’s Narrative
TW: sexual assault It dawned on us this morning yesterday was a trauma anniversary. No wonder we couldn’t stop crying in therapy. That day over a decade ago… It almost destroyed us completely. I only remember bits and pieces. Everything from my perspective is muted. I remember we walked up…
SheepieDex 