Personal Experience
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Understanding Trauma: A Survivor’s Narrative
TW: sexual assault It dawned on us this morning yesterday was a trauma anniversary. No wonder we couldn’t stop crying in therapy. That day over a decade ago… It almost destroyed us completely. I only remember bits and pieces. Everything from my perspective is muted. I remember we walked up…
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The Second Stream: Epiphanies
The course of the last week as been a consistent roller coaster. Par for the course of Winter for us I suppose. After all, some the worse traumas occurred during Winter. The past few days have been tumultuous to say the least. Most of the week we felt fine, a…
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The Burden of Extra Time: A Personal Reflection
If rest was not needed I would probably spend the time reading, writing, or more importantly: focusing on internal communication. Maybe finish up my college semester. The last few months have been a rollercoaster of change. Mainly Internal. My mom reached out last week and asked us questions to better…
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The First Stream: Chaos Entities
I woke up this morning feeling slightly out of it. Another night of disrupted sleep. I never sleep well. If it wasn’t just darkness, it was nightmares. And if it wasn’t nightmares, it would be dreams leaving me feeling many things and out of place upon waking. Last night I…
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Let Me Bask in the Sun by the Water
I live in the mountains currently, but I spent nearly a decade living on the East Coast. The sounds of the ocean will always calm my nerves. I have not forgotten how on the cloudy days, the ocean waves swirled a murky grey green. I have not forgotten the full…
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Understanding Complex DID: A Journey Through Polyfragmentation
In January of 2023 my therapist mentioned C-DID (complex DID) in passing for the first time. We didn’t know then C-DID was the former clinical term for polyfragmented. I remember a caretaker part, Jane, stepping forward to give an answer as to how we were really doing around that time.…
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To Little or not to Little
What does it mean to be a kid at heart? To be a kid at heart is a phrase some would say means to have “energy” or being whimsical. It initially perplexed us. But to be fair, a lot of idioms take us a minute to parse and sort out…
